Do you ever get like super vulnerable late at night that you just want to spill your heart out and say how you feel because you’ve been holding it in for so long and you just need some ventilation and there’s just something about two in the morning that makes me lose my filter and say the things I would never have the guts to say when the sun is up.
the nights were mainly made for saying things that you can’t say tomorrow day
Osama I cant get help, I cant leave the house with my mom, I cant get counselling or help from the imam without them knowing. I have brothers who drink, smoke and engage in zina and she forgives them but she wont forgive me for my bad temper and attitude, when I shout or respond I never do it with the intentions to hurt her, I hurt myself more in the process and she just curses me and sometimes prays that I never find happiness I feel like Allah accepts her dua because I've never been happy
Call your Imam.
Call social services.
Call the police.
Call someone, please.
I’m helpless here, this is a serious situation, please seek out serious help.